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I was a late blooming sissy. Like most sissies-to-be, I had early incidents of trying on my sisters clothes and enjoying the way they felt, but I always viewed myself as a heterosexual who just liked to imagine stroking a nubile female underneath the lingerie I was wearing. It was much later in life that I took the serious turn from being a heterosexual crossdresser to being a submissive faggot cocksucker. When I was 39, the love of my life (I thought) broke up with me, saying that I was much too dominant for her to be with. I was devastated and I decided to try to take steps to become more submissive so that she would love me again. I did numerous web searches for such things as ‘submissive husbands’, ‘female led relationships’ and ‘wife-led marriage’.
Needless to say, these were not psychological self help sites. However, I was not repulsed by the images in front of me. Indeed, they touched a part of my psyche that I never knew existed. Seeing naked men, or men dressed as sissies, submitting to the unbridled lust of their female partners left me reaching for my zipper and wishing I was one of them. Soon I came upon sites where the women were sharing their sissy with their alpha lovers tuzla escort and friends, which left me having to admit to myself that I wanted to suck cocks for her. I needed to suck cocks for her. I HAD to suck cocks for her.
Unfortunately, Linda never wanted to get back with me, so I was left with these desires to be a submissive cocksucking cuckold, and no way to actually do anything about them. That is until the day I admitted to myself that I really didn’t need Linda to find cocks for me. I could find my own. Thankfully, I had already discovered internet sissy dating sites, and after weeks of just reading the ads and jerking myself off fantasizing about what would happen if I actually answered an ad, I did so (but that story will be told later).
Over the next few years I answered many ads. At first, I only did so every six to eight months, but as the need in me grew, the spaces between men grew shorter. During this time, my urge to crossdress grew; first from just missing the feel of Linda in lingerie and trying to imagine her in bed next to me, and then from me accepting that I wanted to be the one in lingerie with a cock in my mouth. I retired early and moved to göztepe escort another state where I felt more comfortable with the idea of being seen in public as a skirt wearing sissy. I bought my first dresses and high heels with the intent of actually wearing them in public instead of just in the privacy of my home. I bought a butt plug with the thought of submitting to a man like a woman. Almost immediately, I had to get a bigger one. Then a bigger one. The feeling of being penetrated was like nothing I had ever felt before. The pulsing spasms from my prostate as I orgasmed into my sheets left me unable to get up. My memory flashed back to previous times when I had left my female lovers unable to rise from bed after their orgasms. I now knew how they felt, and I wanted to do it again, and again.
Over the next few years I had nearly 30 men, but I was always on the hunt for Mister Big, who would take me from saying “It is too big!” to “Oh my God, it is SO BIG!”. I always posted as a submissive but, even so, many of the men who responded were closet bottoms or switches themselves, who wanted to use my body the way I wanted to use theirs. Desperate to find the actual alpha üsküdar escort bulls out there who would fuck me like the slut I needed to be, I decided to buy a cock cage. I wanted responders to know that my cock was unavailable to them, that the only things I was offering them was my mouth or ass. I didn’t want mutual satisfaction; I WANTED TO BE FUCKED!
That leads to the main point of this story. I bought one (bashful still, by mail order instead of my local porn shop). After over a week, it finally arrived. After showering and shaving everywhere except my head and putting on my sheerest and shortest nightie, I put it on. As soon as I got it on I felt different. With my cock locked away and my balls kept tightly in place, I lost all sexual feeling from my crotch. The only primary erogenous zone I had left was my ass. My boipussy tingled like never before and my naked fanny, tickled by the sheer lace of my hemline, twitched to be touched by a man. I had to do something immediately to ease my need! I grabbed my camera and made photos of me facing the camera while plunging my 8 inch long, 5.5 inch circumference dildo into my ass while my caged cock just hung there, unavailable.
With my favorite internet site down, it took a while to find another. I posted the ad a few minutes ago. I have two responses already. I asked if they were willing to share. They will both be here in a few minutes. I’ll tell you how it went in my next story.
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